A contest for all

Admin Posts : 121 Join date : 2008-12-17 Age : 38

OKay so I am in a weird mood for sure but I want to get a contest going. OUt of boredom or something. So anyway. Here is the contest.

I would like a self portrait of your self done. You could write a story or draw a picture. I am looking for creativity. Yes I know this sounds a bit weird but I have been thinking of doing one of myself. As some of you know I fight very hard every day to get out of bed because of pain. I plain on doing a self portrait but I am looking for inspiration other than my pain. So I look to you guys.

Like I said you could write draw rant whatever. Just how you feel about yourself. The prize is nothing grand but its from me so its a nice thing:) I will draw you a digital picture or your liking. It would be of your charrie or something you just want. I hope that is a good enough prize.

http://firehazardgurl.deviantart.com/gallery/ My art Smile

(( Okay here is some of it my picture will be added later)

In a room full of darkness my soul does hide
In a time of pain my soul seems to slide
It looks like my mind is filled with things that cause no harm
but do you understand that I want to dig into my arm.

With a knife like a bad wife
Or a bitch with a switch?
I am all that I can but I feel that I fall two feet to short
and I drowned in my own mistakes until my last breath seems to keep me awake.

Stay strong
Stay strong
Stay strong

I do not lie awake praying my soul he does take
I pray that my life be blessed and my kids do their best
but int he end I feel like death and pain engulfs me until my mind warps and my thoughts drift
Does he listen to my prayers or me at all?

I am a shell empty at times.
It seems that my poem like to ryrm
but all want is something to take the pain away sometimes

Stay strong
Stay strong
Stay strong

A drug and need to feed to hide to bleed
Mind mind wants something so that it can flee
yet I hold still and hide from those things.
I will not go back to the child I once was

A pipe and bowl and things to get high
Just a bit of bud to take me to the sky
No not that because its not me
Not anymore not since before my kids

Stay strong
Stay strong
Stay strong

I will not be that person I was
No never
Yet the pain eats me alive and twist my mind.

Will my legs work for my the rest of my life will my hands move like they do?
Will I be disabled will i die. Will I be there to see my kids touch the sky?
I Pray and I hope yet at times it seems to much.

Stay strong
Stay strong
Stay strong

Thats all I can do is try and stay strong
but when does it take my will
when will it take my soul
When will just be to much for me to stay stong.

Posts : 29 Join date : 2009-01-04

I collect flying boats
Ones that make me say
“I feel like a bigger man”
I collect flying boats
So I can sail the Milky Way
From Detroit to Japan
The ones made of wood
But not the fiberglass kind
Regardless of the name
Or the colors of the ensign
Just as long as they aren’t small
I need big, I need grand.
So I can stuff and haul
All the rubber ducks
To a far away land
Just so I can hear
The captain skip and yell
“I've collected them all”
“And I have no plan to share”

I really wish leannan_rain could have come up with her own poem instead of stealing mine.

:p

Admin Posts : 109 Join date : 2008-12-18 Age : 35

Here's my entry. :3

I collect ducks.
One of every shape and size,
of every form and frame.
I collect ducks.
Ones modeled after fortune
and others modeled after fame.
Some are naked,
some are clothed.
Some have small beaks
and others are big-nosed.
One dressed as a cow,
And even a girl duck
in a bath robe and towel.
My favorite is the Pope duck
with his hat,
and cross and beads.
I imagine him saying,
"The power of Christ
compells you,"
while the devil duck laughs
and calls him a fool.

I think this describes me pretty well.

Admin Posts : 121 Join date : 2008-12-17 Age : 38

stick things are fine XD

And whit you so have some duck fetish and I think adam should dress up like a rubber ducky XD I think that would be funny as shit XD

Posts : 29 Join date : 2009-01-04

Mwahahahahaha. Good o edit button. I'm just saying..she stole my idea..and not the other way around..

See...my post is before hers..

:p

Admin Posts : 109 Join date : 2008-12-18 Age : 35

That's awfully clever of you, bff.

I can see we're going to have to have some words later on.

Also, do you go by "Lamp" now? Or did you steal that picture like you stole my idea? >=)

Posts : 29 Join date : 2009-01-04

"Lamp" is the name of the drawing, I suppose I should have added my signature..but..I really don't want to claim it:p

Subject: Re: A contest for all Tue Jan 20, 2009 4:50 pm

Do I have to do a drawing? Hehe, I suck at drawing.

Admin Posts : 121 Join date : 2008-12-17 Age : 38

Nope writing is fine poems anything its about you Smile

Posts : 24 Join date : 2009-01-10 Age : 30

A tribute to my... ahem bipolarness. And my loneliness, because I really can't catch a guy when the only other guy that could possibly like me has a girlfriend that he likes veryy much. HS drama. :O

Kind of an explanation... I'm writing a poem about my sadness, about my loneliness without this him, but in between there are little bursts of 'high'. As if he's actually there at that time and I can be happy. But then it goes back to my sadness, and trades off. Being a perfect example of my BIPOLARNESS. ;P

A contest for all RANT_PICTURE___AimeeClaire_by_eclecticaimee

Questions Flowing in the Wind.
----
Where are you, my love?
Where are you, my soul?
Where are you, my friend?
Where are you, my whole?

My heart is flying up above.
Soaring in the sky,
Blowing in the wind,
How high can it go, how high?

Why do you walk away?
My dear one...
Why do shy away?
My loved one...

My heart is flying up above.
Soaring in the sky,
Blowing in the wind,
How high can it go, how high?

Sometimes it feels
Just like a song
Lyric one...Lyric two
Lyric WRONG

My heart is flying up above.
Soaring in the sky,
Blowing in the wind,
How high can it go, how high?

You say I matter to you
You say that you care
I missed the perfect, thing,
Opportunity, by a hair

My heart is flying up above.
Soaring in the sky,
Blowing in the wind,
How high can it go, how high?

And now as my story
Comes close to an end
I'd like to say I love you
If only you'd listened.

----

Life Story Right now:;
Let's use fake names for some of my "friends".
Backstabber- Ilia
Fake friend?- Pridith
Comforting Boy- John
??? Boy- Franklin
Comforting Boy's Girl- Smurfy
Random Girl- Katrina

I don't give a fuck about Ilia. URGHH. Just because she might regret breaking up with John doesn't mean she can go around depriving people of hugs from their friends and depriving him of comforting his own friends. >:|

I'm sorry for being a priss[<---made up word], but I'm just pissed off. I didn't expect Pridith to go and defend her. When logically, I'm right.... What does it mean for our friendship? This feeling... isn't good about it. And I don't want it to go away.

This isn't a fairytale thing... Somebody isn't going to get their happy ending from this little... fiasco, and it's probably going to be me. But I'm still holding on the the hope John has that everything is going to turn out okay.

I don't hate Smurfy.... I'm just jealous. I didn't think I was going to fall in love with John. I didn't know! I thought Franklin was... I was only focused on him! Sure, I did like John first... but then Franklin.... URGH. It makes me so upset with myself. Hence, Katrina calls me bipolar. And then as if magic, I become bipolar... Hah, or not magic. Its Smurfy's fault. And John's. And Franklin's. ITS NOT MY FAULT! I'm sorry... all I can do is apologize I'm so pathetic.

Today I told John that I was sorry that I was so blind. That I was sorry I was such a terrible person. I was sorry that he had to put up with my shit. Because, I was dumping all my problems on him because that one night he told me that I mattered to him. That I mattered. I wasn't worthless. And he reminds me that he cares. And I just dump out all my crap on him. And I'm such a priss for doing that. And I just kept apologizing. All I can do is say I'm sorry.

And when I get home after school.... I'm happy. Hello family. Don't worry about me and my fake smiles every day. I'll just dump it on John when I get back to school tomorrow. But of course I don't want them to know... I don't want them to... I don't even know, but I always feel like I can never tell my family. Plus my brothers would make fun of me.

-----

Anyways that's an excerpt of a little story that I wrote... Haha half of it like just now? Yeah.... If you're smart, you might be able to figure out that this is a true story. About me. And, no, I don't want your pity about this. I'm all good. I have to learn by myself right now, I need to learn the hard way, or I won't learn at all.

This is my entry. ;D

Subject: Re: A contest for all Thu Jan 22, 2009 9:56 pm

Does the poem have to be about yourself?

Subject: Re: A contest for all Sat Jan 24, 2009 9:52 am

A Bit of Confusion

It defines me perfectly
Every move I make is in it
I don't know how I stay here
It's like a boiling sea
Contained in a tea cup
Yet not a drop spills
Even as it rages over the sides
Even if I think about it
It never quite comes in to focus
As if it has it's own personal fog
Or beneath a rushing river
Either way it tosses me about
Cracks me against a few rocks
Then tosses me in to pudding!
That's the thing though
You could be in pudding!
Or perhaps just wrapped in bubble wrap
Or smelling something so bad
It makes your eyes water till you can't see
Now it can't be all bad of course
I ask a lot more questions
Or perhaps that's just stupidity
I never know the right answer
Or just wont ever know enough
So that's what I am in
All the time constantly
But hey I like pudding ^^

Yeah not much of a poem but my dinky teacher doesn't want us to rhyme lol. So I was bored and wrote this. English sucks when your good at it.

Admin Posts : 121 Join date : 2008-12-17 Age : 38

yeah rj its a yoursefl Smile

Subject: Re: A contest for all Mon Jan 26, 2009 9:41 pm

Darn, i'm not that good on self writings.

Admin Posts : 121 Join date : 2008-12-17 Age : 38

Okay this is closed I am going to look over everything but before I decide I am going to do myself portrait. It may take a fw days because I am sick but I want to get this out and see what you all think. I will never do it if I don't do it for a reason.